He's a child, Rita. Children are entitled to their tantrums, it has no bearing on who you are and the continued kindness you offer everyone on this station.
[ he does kind of wish she had kept dogshit mcgivens on the backburner in case booker ever returned, but. swings and roundabouts. ]
[ honestly, it'd been less about itachi himself and more about everything she'd been forced to remember that she hated about herself. all those inconsiderate, selfish flaws she'd tried to work on to be a better person. she'd never been good at it, so it's often hard for her to tell if she's doing it right.
as heavy as her heart is, joe's words have a way of soothing it somewhat. ]
I'm not entirely sure everyone sees it that way. I think I ended up offending more people than not.
I don't think anyone was entirely wrong, the crux of a station full of disparate and desperate people. Sometimes it can feel like people are putting themselves into roles they were not invited into and so it feels as if they're overstepping. Anger is a tool in that case, a service, especially when it feels like boundaries have been crossed.
But part of existing in a society, even one as small as the Ximilia is learning how to express that without resorting to denigration and tantrums. You offered something fun and whimsical and he chose to see the worst instead, that is on him, not you. It doesn't diminish the care you put in.
I do get it. I mean I've been there. Having decisions made for me and told that I'm meant to be something that I never signed up. The people I'm with back home, all they ever seem to do is buck and fight against something that was thrown on them. Myself included sometimes.
I guess I'm just beginning to wonder if it's ever going to work, getting everyone to find some kind of commonground that will help unify us better. I know it's a lot to ask of dozens of people from completely different worlds and backgrounds, but I just figured we're all here for similar reasons, so that should mean something.
Do you think that'd ever be possible? Getting all of these separate parts to become more of a whole?
I used to think it was, but now I can't be sure. My family was together for 200 years and I thought even if we disagreed on some things, on the whole we were fighting for the same cause. Instead my brother was willing to sacrifice us in service of his own goal like we were nothing.
[ joe is unfailingly optimistic in the world at large. people will always do monstrous things, but others will always fight back. hope is powerful and necessary and it is hard and he is so fucking tired. rita gets this sliver honesty and to joe it feels like a weakness, a failure on his part, to be anything other than what he has shown the station as a whole already, warmth and sunshine and positivity. ]
[ it's hard to imagine that, to see joe experience such betrayal. with all the goodness in him that he tries to offer. the optimism that's helped to encourage her. but she should understand. rita farr is the embodiment of taking on a role, at masking the hurt and pain underneath with a brilliant smile. she and joe might be more alike in ways she hadn't considered before. ]
I'm sorry he did that to you, Joe.
The man who brought me and my friends together, who gave us a home when we were at our lowest, turned out to be the very reason why our lives were destroyed in the first place. It isn't easy to forgive that after so many years of trust.
It can be hard to believe in people after that.
[ she still has mixed feelings about chief, even after everything. if she were betrayed by someone like larry, she wouldn't know what she'd do. ]
But you're right. If we didn't believe in continuing to try, we wouldn't be on this station in the first place.
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He's a child, Rita. Children are entitled to their tantrums, it has no bearing on who you are and the continued kindness you offer everyone on this station.
[ he does kind of wish she had kept dogshit mcgivens on the backburner in case booker ever returned, but. swings and roundabouts. ]
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as heavy as her heart is, joe's words have a way of soothing it somewhat. ]
I'm not entirely sure everyone sees it that way. I think I ended up offending more people than not.
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But part of existing in a society, even one as small as the Ximilia is learning how to express that without resorting to denigration and tantrums. You offered something fun and whimsical and he chose to see the worst instead, that is on him, not you. It doesn't diminish the care you put in.
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I guess I'm just beginning to wonder if it's ever going to work, getting everyone to find some kind of commonground that will help unify us better. I know it's a lot to ask of dozens of people from completely different worlds and backgrounds, but I just figured we're all here for similar reasons, so that should mean something.
Do you think that'd ever be possible? Getting all of these separate parts to become more of a whole?
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I used to think it was, but now I can't be sure. My family was together for 200 years and I thought even if we disagreed on some things, on the whole we were fighting for the same cause. Instead my brother was willing to sacrifice us in service of his own goal like we were nothing.
[ joe is unfailingly optimistic in the world at large. people will always do monstrous things, but others will always fight back. hope is powerful and necessary and it is hard and he is so fucking tired. rita gets this sliver honesty and to joe it feels like a weakness, a failure on his part, to be anything other than what he has shown the station as a whole already, warmth and sunshine and positivity. ]
It's worth trying still, I think.
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I'm sorry he did that to you, Joe.
The man who brought me and my friends together, who gave us a home when we were at our lowest, turned out to be the very reason why our lives were destroyed in the first place. It isn't easy to forgive that after so many years of trust.
It can be hard to believe in people after that.
[ she still has mixed feelings about chief, even after everything. if she were betrayed by someone like larry, she wouldn't know what she'd do. ]
But you're right. If we didn't believe in continuing to try, we wouldn't be on this station in the first place.
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Hope is a learned skill, but not everyone wants to learn it
[ his sigh doesn't translate via text but maybe it actually does. ]
It's easier not to